Friday, July 26, 2013
Remember when I thought I would be happy or kicking myself in the ass? I'm leaning towards kicking myself in the ass. I think I'm afraid of losing the label? Starting over. Starting fresh. I never really recovered from that battle. Sure I got back up but it's like when a wound bleeds through a bandage. It's never ending and of course painful. Not sure if I use the right analogy. What I'm trying to say is that the fire has been put out. Yeah there are days where it's turned on, but most of the time it's out. And it's usually me trying to rekindle it. It's not like I'm blind and taking things for granted. It's just how I feel and perceive things. I was almost about to burst into tears when I found out. I hope this is a phase cause if its not then I'm screwed. If it is a phase, then this is a really long and depressing one.